The Net of Thoughts

I am wondering, for quite a while; about this:

"Will people still be friendly to me, if I tell the truth that they do not want to hear; the words that point out their mistakes but remind them of their shortcomings, the words that criticize their actions but at the same time can help them change into a better person? Can they handle the truth that they know and always ignore?"

I am a silent person, but I still have eyes to observe people's actions and a brain to understand their actions and to think about their actions. At most times, I want to point out their shortcomings. But due to the problem of confidence and with a pinch of "oh, it's a common thing, it's useless to go against it" thought, I always kept silent.

Sometimes, with my silence, I won the favor of people. Because I am silent, I seem to comply with their thoughts, their paradigm, their views and their beliefs. Yes...sometimes silent can be interpreted as a "yes".

But of course, this the reality. Even though I am silent, that does not mean that I am a mindless idiot who blindly follow things. I am a rebel. I sometimes rebelled against what they say, what they believe in. I am no pak turut. In the first place, I might accidentally say that I agree(because I want to make sure that their feelings are not hurt, menjaga hati orang). And of course, feelings can make me say "yes" to something that I internally say "no".

But again, being a rebel can cause negative things to happen to me.

Returning to the main point of this post, frankly, I must say that I feel uneasy for being silent. I feel guilty of not telling the truth. People ignore the truth. For example, they know that something is forbidden, but they do it anyway. And then, it is me who observe the things happening in my daily life and I decide to keep silent about it, rather than correcting it.

Well, I must say that I have weakest form of iman. Hating bad, evil things(mungkar) with my heart. I am disappointed with my lack of courage to uphold the truth. I am really a failure of becoming a da'i. But that can be changed, of course; positively thinking.

I am a human, full of weaknesses and far from perfect. By writing this I do not mean to label myself as a perfect person. I am the same as you. I still have much to improve and to correct. I am not worthy of saying all of these things to you. But still...my silence must be broken. And this is method to break it, even if my mouth is muted by my lack of confidence.

Alright, by revealing much about me, which you can understand by now, I can start pointing out a few "truths". Sorry for using the term truth as right now I am quite "out-of-vocabs"(I am lazy to refer to the dictionary right now! I just squeeze my brain for relevant terms...).

Anyway, let's start with out hearts. Watch this video. I urge you to watch it, absorb it. Watch it!


By Allah! Your hearts are diseased! Including myself!

Do you want a solution to this? Ah...I do not have to answer the question. YOU KNOW THE ANSWER.

Remember, who is the one, if without that one, you won't be living, you won't be here, you won't possess any consciousness at all?

Surah ar-Ra'd, ayat 28:

"Those who believe, and whose hearts find satisfaction in the remembrance of Allah: for without doubt in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find satisfaction."

I wish to be happy, I wish that my wish will be true, I wish to be with the person that I love, happy forever. How can I achieve that? By returning to Allah of course!

So, return to Allah my dear brothers and sisters. Happiness lies with Him. Do not find happiness anywhere else other than our Lord. All of that happiness is crap! It will not last.

I do not wish to repeat the mistakes and the stupidity of my past. And I hope you will not as well. It is time to change.

Change is difficult. Isn't it right? Yea, I experience it as well, at this very moment, before this and now. But...think of the happiness that will come after it!

The pain that all of us experience right now is temporary. In the end, there will be happiness. I know, it is difficult to convince you, especially if your heart is in the condition of hard to see what is beyond the pain that you experience right now.

LISTEN! Do not let that pain blind you! I know! I have been blinded by that pain before! But I learned a bit to swallow it! Even if it is bitter. I know you know!

Well, if you know, apply it! I am just here to remind. I am writing this to remind. I am not forcing anyone.

"Humans, even if they know, they need to be constantly reminded so that they apply it it their lives. A tree without fruits is useless, a man/women with knowledge but does not practice what he/she knows is useless. That is why tarbiyyah is important."

Wallahulam. Ponder it for a while, will you? And...I apologize if I somehow hurt anyone in this post, it is only for a reminder, I have no intention of hurting anyone.

Thank you.

PS: I really appreciate criticisms and corrections. I know this piece has many shortcomings in it.