The Net of Thoughts

Assalamu'alaikum.

Alright, tonight I feel that I want to update this blog. Well, maybe I somehow got motivated to post something in this boring blog of mine. I apologize for being boring. But that's just me. I'm boring of course, unless you find me interesting...*sigh*

I just want to tell what I'm doing right now. Well, I guess I have decided to do a bit of a research. Maybe not research, but to understand something...or someone, maybe, to be accurate. To be honest, I have been neglecting many important things in my life right now. Maybe it's time to get back on track.

You want to know why I neglected the important things in my life? Well, I was addicted to this game:






Fallout 3 is set in post-nuclear war period, in the year 2277 at the Capital Wasteland, the ruins of old Washington D.C. in the US of A. The world is a wasteland due to the nuclear war that destroyed the world in 2077. If you want to know more...read the wiki. I don't have time to tell everything about it...

The game is great...and addictive. It's an action-RPG. Looks like a first-person shooter, but with RPG element. You gain EXP, level up, choose your perks@skills. And there's tons of quests to play. Haha, I was addicted with this game for a week or so until my desktop died suddenly. Before that, I was addicted to Fiesta. But maybe I was so fed up with Speedy Boogies and it's repetitive quests and grinding...I migrated to this game...

It even has in-game radio...which is quite nice, some stations with American propaganda of course. And I think this game has propaganda too. Well, can't say about that here. Heh.

I was playing this game for a week and then, like I have said, my desktop suddenly died. Tiba-tiba padam begitu sahaja. I'm guessing that my PSU(power supply unit) has fried...I hope it was not the processor that burnt. I was happily playing an alien quest. At that time I already finished the main quest, which is helping your in-game father complete Project Purity, a project that cleans dirty, irradiated water in the wasteland so that everyone can drink it. I was about to escape from the cell in that alien's mothership, and then my desktop PC died. Just like that.

Anyway, I'm retiring from gaming, which I already had a few months ago. This holidays suddenly seduced me to become an owl again...with panda eyes(thanks Anna for the term, sorry for not playing Fiesta for a while). I was a super hardcore, playing all night and sleeping all day, which is bad for my health and my life!

No more games, no more games, no more games! I need to read books...lots and lots of books. No more wasting hours of my life with addictive games! I hope when I get my old desktop online again, I should exhibit more self control. I know I can't get rid of it all, at least I can control myself.

There's more in life than games. There's too much. And I have been missing a lot.

Tomorrow, I will be furnishing my room with new furniture. Yay! That room will be habitable again. Hope I can use my room to read in peace. Last time it was a place to sleep only. I can't study in that room. Too much crap!

About that research...I hope I can find what I'm looking for. *sigh* I have been infected by "low self-esteem" disease lately. I have done many mistakes in my life. I wish I have matured earlier. I envy you girls you know? Boys mature later than girls. That's why we did all these stupid things. In my opinion of course. Feel free to debunk it. *sigh*

Wish me luck in my so-called research...I think it's stupid to call it "research". But "understanding something" is quite long, in my opinion. Argh, whatever.

Later then.


I'm in pain actually, but I tend to forget the pain. Then it haunts me back when I'm alone. I guess it's unwise and stupid to say "I miss you and I need you". Why I'm so negative? T.T Experience answers it all you know. *sigh* What I'm talking? *sigh* Am I mimicking someone? Yes...and...no. *sigh*